Eso es alcanzar lo más alto,
lo que tal vez nos dará el Cielo:
no admiraciones ni victorias
sino sencillamente ser admitidos
como parte de una Realidad innegable,
como las piedras y los árboles.
Jorge Luis Borges
This is the best that can happen,
What heaven perhaps will grant us:
Not to be wondered at or required
But simply to be let in
As part of an undeniable Reality,
Like stones of the road, like trees.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
I´ve also given a few other workshops which I haven´t felt quite as positive about. Although the youth were really great, I think they were more timid and so that made it really hard to lead. And of coure the more nervous I get, the more I start mumbling and my brain goes blank and I´m trying to think of the right words and how to put them together in Spanish while having everyone look at me either like I´m crazy or some kind of alien. But I was debriefing with a co-worker and good friend here at ANADES who pointed out that it´s just another environment that I need to get comfortable in. And I´ve noticed that I really have no fear in speaking spanish in most situations anymore, so what´s one more environment to conquer?
I´ve also been attending the support group for people living with HIV and AIDS. Part of my role is to provide ¨emotional and spiritual support¨ to the people in this group. That means that at some point I should start also going and visiting them at their homes. And I want to, I just know from experience what happens to my health when I do too much and burn out. Anyway, the guy who is in charge of this project told me that they used to have funds for a psychologist to work with this group on a contract basis but no longer have the funds. He knew that I was a mental health therapist in a former life and so asked me if I´d be willing to lead the group counseling sessions. That really made my day, and I told him that I can see myself being comfortable doing that in time, maybe 4 months or so. The difference between that and what I´m doing with the workshops is that you really use a different level of language. For example, a lot of the workshops are concrete and factual, and I can plan before hand what I want to talk about. In a counseling session the content is emotional (conditional and all the subjunctive tenses) which is a much more difficult level of language. And I would just hate to have things happen that I should be responding to but am either not catching or am not able to express emotionally what I want to say. So there is a future challenge.
Lastly, my brother in law is getting re-married in September and I plan to be back in Canada for the wedding. I´ve got 3 weeks of vacation for this year and so have just decided to use it all during that time. I didn´t realize that I was homesick until I started to think about all the thinks I´ve missed from home. So it´s been really good to have that trip to look forward to.
I hope to see many of you, my faithful readers (haha), when I come back to Canada in September. Until the next time, take care!